"Not the needle, nor the thread, the lost decree. Saying nothing, that's enough for me."
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Is it wrong to want to achieve a small dose of success for once in my life?
I have been very bitter about everything. The competitive and fast-paced nature of the university life turned me into this grade grubber and over-achiever. Despite the efforts I give, people just do not want to take the time to understand me and take chance with my capabilities. I have been through this hundreds of times already and seeing that damn practicum grade just made it so unfair for my part. Not again, sir and especially you miss A.
I hate being told to be more talkative when I am just doing my job. I hate it when my genetic features make people misjudge me as a snob little bitch. You can never EVER judge a person based on how they satisfy you. Never.
Lately, everything has been so demanding that instead of soaring higher, I'm just being pushed down further and further.
Maybe this dream is just too pretentious anyway. I am probably not meant for this. It's hard to not be this negative when reality is surfacing clearer and clearer by the second.
But if I succeed, then the big letter K has its own way. There's this slim chance that I can get though this, very thin indeed that it does not even make sense anymore. But I will still try to...